nak tahu apa azam saya tahun ni?
be more clear on how I feel.
selama ni saya jenis yang reserved. simpan whatever yang saya rasa, fikir dan lihat. segala post dalam blog ni pun bukanlah jujur sepenuhnya. ada yang saya taip satu perenggan, last last tak published jugak demi nak cover rasa marah.
and now. saya marah. yes. marah to the point saya nak nangis. I held back my tears because I don't want to cry in public for silly reasons they'll think, while I don't. sebab kalau saya marah, dan saya simpan marah tu, memang automatik mata ni berair. I've warned you of my cengeng-ness.
it's sucks to stay at the lowest rank and it becomes more suck-ier to have someone pressing your mind while you're at your lowest energy, nowhere to go and no one to turn to. it's sucks living here right now. I'd be better of on my own for all I care. buat silap sikit kena marah macam saya dah hilangkan duit seribu juta malaysia. buat rajin sikit perli perli. buat apa apa serba tak kena. serabut. yes, SERABUT. I did said it right and it never came out wrong.
kenapa tak call ke, sms sesape ke?
dah la. saya dah give-up nak cerita masalah kat orang. putus asa sampai tahap dah malas dah nak bagitau apa apa. sms pun tak reply, saya rasa call saya pun belum tentu boleh layan.
and those are one of few reasons, saya dah mula tak contact kawan kawan, duduk dalam bilik terperap sehari tak makan pun takpe, duduk diam diam dalam kereta sepatah haram pun tak keluar dari mulut, tetiba tak reply sms, call sampai sepuluh kali pun tak angkat, nak balik rumah pun rasa macam tak mau balik sebab rasa "takda" kawan.
yes.
and if I annoy you so much, feel free to press the red X button up there, on your right.
yang emo.
saya.
be more clear on how I feel.
selama ni saya jenis yang reserved. simpan whatever yang saya rasa, fikir dan lihat. segala post dalam blog ni pun bukanlah jujur sepenuhnya. ada yang saya taip satu perenggan, last last tak published jugak demi nak cover rasa marah.
and now. saya marah. yes. marah to the point saya nak nangis. I held back my tears because I don't want to cry in public for silly reasons they'll think, while I don't. sebab kalau saya marah, dan saya simpan marah tu, memang automatik mata ni berair. I've warned you of my cengeng-ness.
it's sucks to stay at the lowest rank and it becomes more suck-ier to have someone pressing your mind while you're at your lowest energy, nowhere to go and no one to turn to. it's sucks living here right now. I'd be better of on my own for all I care. buat silap sikit kena marah macam saya dah hilangkan duit seribu juta malaysia. buat rajin sikit perli perli. buat apa apa serba tak kena. serabut. yes, SERABUT. I did said it right and it never came out wrong.
kenapa tak call ke, sms sesape ke?
dah la. saya dah give-up nak cerita masalah kat orang. putus asa sampai tahap dah malas dah nak bagitau apa apa. sms pun tak reply, saya rasa call saya pun belum tentu boleh layan.
and those are one of few reasons, saya dah mula tak contact kawan kawan, duduk dalam bilik terperap sehari tak makan pun takpe, duduk diam diam dalam kereta sepatah haram pun tak keluar dari mulut, tetiba tak reply sms, call sampai sepuluh kali pun tak angkat, nak balik rumah pun rasa macam tak mau balik sebab rasa "takda" kawan.
yes.
and if I annoy you so much, feel free to press the red X button up there, on your right.
yang emo.
saya.
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