I should be thankful

mood aku suddenly went down,

draining away

aku seorang yang sensitif

and sometimes sensitif tak bertempat

and tak kena masa

I admit

I have flaws

aku ada cela

okeh

aku nak review balik

and I should be thankful instead of duk emo sorang sorang dalam bilik

then tak reti get off bed

and keluar rumah

kepada readers

if anything of these include you

thousands apologies

I've learnt my lesson

forgive me ye?

*muka seperti puss of shrek,pleading for forgiveness*

baru baru ni

sehari sebelum kenduri at my home

a bunch of friends invited me to go out with them

aku rindu mereka yang ajak aku keluar ni

since lama tak jumpa diorang

then again

its a day before kenduri

and I should help instead of hoyeh hoyeh

I asked mak

then mak cakap settle dulu all the bunga telur for doorgifts

then baru boleh keluar

but I forgot that I have to pick up hunny bee, 

since she's coming all the way from kelantan on that day

*not blaming you, efa. no worries* 

then dengan pasrahnya 

aku tak jadi ikut diorang

diorang pun said nak datang umah aku

I thought that should be fine

but somewhere deep down inside

I felt that, it will never happen

and it happened just as I thought

they don't come

as I wait almost the whole day in front of my door 

I told to myself a thousand reasons for why they don't come

and thinking I should not sulking

over a stupid remeh hal

and then

there came photos where I was tagged

and I was like

" Oh crap! aku cam nak menangis pun ade nii"

*I'm sorry! aku cengeng! abaikan akuu*

aku tetiba terasa

:(

aku try get over

tapi it won't come out of my head, my mind

till tonight

aku duduk sorang sorang dalam bilik

aku fikir balik

oh no!

I shouldn't think like that

I should be thankful!

it was nice of you guys invited me along in the first place

and

bukan kami tak boleh keluar lagi lepas ni

there's more time

insyaAllah

kalau aku masih dipanjangkan umur

dan juga diorang

I shouldn't be mad

and for that

a thousand apologies

aku mintak maaf ye.

p/s. habis dek takde mood, aku pulaukan semua mesej yang masuk dalam inbox both of my phones.

biyane!

p/s/s. I hate mood swings!

p/s lagi. for those yang mesej. ade yang aku sengaja. first of all. aku stop listening to problem cinta. second, aku memang takde mood for those. again, sorry.