life, as it is

sungguh senang untuk manusia bermuka-muka,
mengambil kesempatan,
menggunakan orang lain demi kepentingan diri *in other word, total selfish*,
berlagak pandai walaupun dalam mind kosong macam harem je,
berpura-pura tahap total
and, last but not least,
perasan *full of oneself*.

tak dapat dinafikan, akan tiba satu tahap, seseorang itu akan menjadi watak yang di atas, atas alasan, menjaga hati atau air muka orang lain, memang nature kehidupannya begitu or simply, one hate the other person.

tapiii..
does it have to be last and affecting other people by all means, the innocents too?

saye tak cakap yang saye amat baik.
to be clearly frank, i'm not. i've used people before, i pretended before, i took advantage on naive-r person than me.
but, i've assured that they did not affect others that had nothing to do with the case.
simply, i just do it to the only person that cause me to do that.
tapi,saye tetap 'jahat'. dalam erti kata lain, hati saye tak hitam, tapi nyata tak bersih.

tak terkejut.
cuma pelik.
ada perkara masih tak berubah.
malah, true color semakin jelas terserlah.

i've used to be in the limelight, back when i was little. i shone in everything i was doing. matter-of-factly, i did like them, the attention that i've used to be getting.
but, as i grew older, the limelight becoming darker and darker. i did blame anyone for this. nor myself.
i guess its just the nature of life. human being life cycle. nothing to complain.
*macam dah lari tajuk je*

i'm okay with it although i did miss the old me. however, i've moving on. life's still have to go on. isnt it?

saye rasa, semua orang tak suka perkara-perkara yang saye mention pada awal entry. saye tidaklah terlampau baik untuk menyatakan yang saye boleh hidup dengan orang-orang sedemikian rupa. cuma, i'm pretty much okay with them. i teach myself to ignore them, as possible as i could. in my mind, saye tekankan, kesabaran itu tak pernah ade limit. hanya kita yang menetapkan limit itu. orang yang sabar, tetap akan sabar walau apa pun yang datang menimpa.

i'll try to please them, without letting myself being used or manipulated by them.
back then, saye simpan semua feeling saye, even when saye rasa amat marah. serious f**king marah.
but now, takdela saye melenting tak tentu pasal, cuma, saye honest dengan orang bout how i feel. if saye tak selesa dengan sesuatu perkara, its either i tell them to my face, or find a way to talk to them without hurting any of our feelings.

sume orang tak suke bergaduh, kecuali penggusti or bouncer kelab malam kut.

for me, its the way you handle the situation. any situation. psychology is the best method. it acts as the eye-opener for narrow minded, pull back the too much open minded, take the dreamers back into reality and so on.